UGH! I Just Don't Know What I Want To Be...

...when I grow up!

I'm angst-ridden.

Is that even a word?

Angst-ridden.

Angstridden?

Nope.  Merriam says I made it up.

I guess I am 

full of angst, then.

(frankly, I think "angst-ridden" is more colorful)

FULL OF ANGST.

Surely by now you are asking why?

I have no answer for you.

HOWEVER;

I have some possibilities.

1. It could be hormones because, well, I have them and sometimes I think they go out of whack.
2. It could be because it is January 3rd and I was in bed flat-out sick the 1st and the 2nd.
3. It could be number two ADDED to the fact that I have all these dreams and goals for 2012 that are now having trouble getting off the ground.
4. It could be because I cannot decide if I should continue doing some things...like blogging and...well, other things. ;-)
5. It really could just be that I'm recovering from whatever it was that blindsided me health-wise, and stupidly-decided-to-have-a-Dr.-Pepper-at-Mom's-house-at-1:30-in-the-afternoon-when-I-KNOW-that-if-I-have-that-kind-of-caffeine-after-noon-I-will-not-be-able-to-sleep-and-here-I-sit-with-my-mind-racing-a-million-miles-an-hour-making-myself-crazy...

*GASP*

I think that's it.

All of the above with an emphasis on #5.

But the blogging thing too. 

 

I read so many blogs out there.

So many blogs that are 

SO GOOD

(and who are written by FRIENDS - people I actually KNOW, so I can't tell myself that these aren't real people!)

with 

PRETTY PICTURES

and beautiful writing.

I have none of those things here.

It's 

JUST ME

saying 

WHATEVER I FEEL

on 

WHATEVER DAY IT MAY BE

about

WHATEVER SUBJECT 

tickles my fancy that moment.

I should be more organized...

more to-the-point...

more BETTER. 

(at english, apparently)

To be honest, I do not want to spend the 

necessary time to be those things.

I just want to post words on a blog the way

an artist spatters paint on a canvas.

SPLAT!

And people come flocking 

to figure out if she is 

CRAZY-MAD?

Or is she a genius?

Just Amy

Book Review: Three Cups by Mark St. Germain

     


I got the e-book version of Three Cups directly from the publisher at Booksneeze.com. I did like the illustrations even on the e-book version, however, I was a little bit disappointed by the simplicity of the book. I'm not sure if it's because I already am aware of the idea of breaking your finances up into three cups, or if I wanted a little more "story" along with the instructions. 

I have actually tried the concept in the past with my children and had little luck. Every single one of them ended up "playing" with the cups -- dumping the money out and stacking it up...and I found it very hard to pay the children with the three cup method. For example, you cannot give a child a $5 bill, or a $1 bill... you have to give him a sum that is able to be broken up according to your spending habits. 

So maybe my experiences colored my view of the book in a negative light. It is beautifully illustrated but overly simplistic. I'd like to see somewhere in the back some information on how to make this work in the real world.

Book Review: Healing Is A Choice

Book Review:

HEALING IS A CHOICE

By

Stephen Arterburn

     I found this wonderful website called Booksneeze.com.  In all fairness, my hubby found it and thought of me...and I was hooked.  That man is so smart!  ANY WHO...from what I gather, they send me books to review and I read them and review them and it is a very happy relationship.  This is my first review, so we'll see how it goes.

     To be honest, I initially avoided reading this book.  I received it from Booksneeze.com and was kind of regretting my choice.  Upon reading the introduction I was thinking that maybe I didn’t need to heal and therefore, would get nothing out of this book.  About halfway through the first chapter, I came to understand that although I have not been wounded emotionally and don’t need help healing in that aspect, it WILL come in handy for me to counsel others who DO need to heal.  I like the way the book is set up.  Each chapter starts with a choice that we all have to make, followed by a lie that we all tend to believe that keeps us from making that choice.  Arterburn includes plenty of real-life examples to make his point.  There is also a workbook component added into this particular edition, and both the book and the workbook are formatted to be used personally or as a group study.  In an effort to be completely honest, I skipped over the workbook pages simply so I could review this in a timely manner, but I fully intend to go back again after the new year and work through the workbook page by page.  He has a lot of good questions and scripture verses to study in here.  Bottom line:  I really think Arterburn has excellent information in this book for those who need to heal AND for loved ones who want to help those who need to heal.  It think it is a book that anyone who counsels people should keep as a reference.

     Frankly, I can't wait until I have the time to go through the workbook question by question.  There are a ton of scripture verses I really want to dig into, but I just am being stretched too thinly right now to give it my full attention.  I laugh at myself each time I finish a chapter because I initially avoided reading it for a FULL WEEK after I got it.  Then I read the intro...and felt even LESS willing to read it.  I mean, I have had my share of very minor emotional burns.  You can't get through this life without them.  But the book seems to be more for people who have been abused or suffered MAJOR emotional upheaval.  But as I said, I think the book will come in handy at some point in my life.  I mean, my parents and close friends and family are all still alive.  Eventually, I am going to have to deal with the inevitable...and I feel this book will definitely help with that.  The only thing that maybe creeps me out about this book is this:  in my own personal experience, God tends to provide for my needs...ahead of time.  For example, three years ago, I got an envelope in the mail with $300.00 in it around this time of year.  It was a gift from dear friends...and it was something I totally didn't need at the time!  I was literally wracking my brain trying to figure out what God wanted me to do with this money.  lol. (such problems, I know)  Well, approximately one week later my Grandfather died unexpectedly.  He lived in WI.  We lived in PA.  That unexpected $300.00 got us to the funeral and [mostly] back (it's a long story!).
     I know I could think of at least two other examples in my life like this...later.
     But you see my point....what is He preparing me for?  Whatever it is, I plan to read this book asking God the entire time what He needs me to learn because he is good to prepare me in this way!
     So if you would like to have this book as a reference, I completely recommend it.  Everyone should have a copy on the shelf.  Obviously, if you need to figure out what steps you need to take to recover and heal from major emotional trauma, this book is also for you.  You can find it right here.

Just Amy

     

Virtue Of The Month: Gratitude

     The Virtue for this month is:

Gratitude: Letting others know

you see how they've

helped you

     

So far, to kick things off, we have made a "Gratitude Box".  I basically covered a shoe box in pretty paper.  It's really Christmas paper, but I think we can use our imagination from LAST month and pretend that it's just random green trees...right?  RIGHT!

In "real life", it is hard to see the words because the Sharpie I used is apparently running out.  But as you can see in the picture, it comes out looking a little like grati"fude".  Weird.

The plan is to use the slit in the top of the box for slips of paper containing things we are grateful for.  So far we are grateful for the following things:

DS #2: (Dear Son #2) is grateful for...his fork.  I am serious.  He said without it, his hands would get all dirty eating his pot pie for dinner.  Not as profound as I was looking for, but I will refrain from judging.  He does have a point.  No one wants gooey beef gravy between his fingers.

DH (Dear Husband) is grateful for being able to spend a few moments alone with individual members of the family in the past few days.  This is a rare occurrence in our household.  We tend to always be together...and if we are NOT all together, then the person or people who are not with us are out in the world somewhere.  

DD (Dear Daughter) is grateful for her family.  (awww....) I don't think she knows yet that I will not be allowing repeats.  ;-)

DS #1 is grateful that he gets to breathe another day...he probably knows that he will not be able to repeat, so he is getting the really profound ones out of the way at the beginning - while they are fresh in his mind.  Then when he can't think of anything "good" he'll resort to thanking God for his fork.  

And I am grateful that I did not have to make OR buy lunch for the family...nor did I have to serve it.  I got to have a piece of pizza with peppers and onions and sausage...and I don't even know what else, but it was SO TASTY. I washed it down with a Dr. Pepper, which is my FAVORITE poison, er, I mean...soda.  Afterward, I was told that I am a rock star just because I get to do stuff I LOVE - like pretending to be a super-cool human being on a stage twice a month...and smooching babies once a month...and now I even get to support the small group leaders every week!  

These are all volunteer opportunities in the Family Ministries department at my church.  It started out as a favor for a friend, and now I can't imagine NOT doing it.  How dull my life must have been before...  I may need to revise this statement in a few years, but at this current time in my life, my theory is this:  If you have found your spiritual gift, and you are able to take advantage of using that gift to serve others, I don't think you will get burned out.  Because you are in God's will and everything is in balance...and He will just work miracles through you.  I can't wait until a year from now so I can look back and think "Wow.  It's been a year already?  That time FLEW".  Of course, I could be completely wrong and be burned out in 6 months.  Or maybe I got my gift wrong?  But I really don't think so.

Conversations With a Five Year Old

DD:  Mom, does God ever make mistakes?

ME: Nope.  God never makes mistakes.  That's what makes him God.

DD: Does Jesus ever make mistakes?

ME: No. And you want to know what's extra-cool about that? He was HUMAN for 33 years...and he STILL never made a mistake! That's what makes him SO worthy of our praise.

DD: (eyes huge) Wow!  I wish I could be like Jesus.

ME: Me too, Dolly.  But I think if we TRY to be like Jesus, even though we will fail miserably, we'll probably turn out to be pretty decent people, don't you think?

DD: Yeah.  But what if we make mistakes while we're trying to be like Jesus?

ME:  That's what grace and forgiveness are for.  God will forgive us...even though we don't deserve it.

DD:  God is really awesome!

ME: He really is.

DD:  Did you put half and half in here? (looking at her hot cocoa)

And just as quickly as the deep, poignant conversation started, it was OVER!  But, WOW.  Where did I learn to say stuff like that? It almost sounded like a Hallmark movie. If you had told me ten years ago that I would be having a discussion like that with my daughter, I wouldn't have believed it.  I probably wouldn't have even believed I would HAVE a daughter, much less be having such a thoughtful, important conversation about the God of the universe with her.  That is the power of the Spirit.  He works constantly, but I don't notice a lot of the time.  Then I get little glimpses of the importance of my role as mother to my children...and am blown away.  I don't want to waste a moment of our time together!

Just Amy

My NEW Favorite Laundry Detergent!

I went through great pains

to photograph

myself

making laundry detergent

just so you could

see how easy

it can be.

Therefore, it is with 

GREAT EMBARRASSMENT

and head-hanging

that I make this post.

I've found THE easiest

way to make  your own

laundry detergent.

It's easier to make,

It's easier to store.

Dare I say 

It's easier to use?

Maybe.

So here's the recipe: 

I won't even post pics

because it's THAT

simple!

1 cup grated Fels Naptha Soap

1/2 cup washing soda

1/2 cup 20 mule team borax

Mix and store in airtight container or bag. For light or small loads, use 1 tablespoon. For normal loads, use 2 tablespoons. For heavy loads, use 3 tablespoons. Cost per load .15.

To make a large batch - grate 6 bars of Fels Naptha Soap and then add 3 cups of Washing Soda and 3 cups of 20 Mule Team Borax.  Mix well and store in covered container.

For more recipes, visit Soaps Gone Buy, my favorite place on the web!

You will have to measure

the first time to be sure,

but I believe one bar 

yields about 3 cups 

grated soap...so I just

TRIPLE

it and have lots of detergent

to use.

I also mix it up thoroughly

with a whisk, but as I was doing it

I thought maybe a dough-cutter

would work just as well.

I cannot believe I put

you though the torture

of making a 5 gallon bucket

full of soap.

This powdered stuff fits

in a big Gladware container on

the counter. AND

I don't have to pay beg my

husband to haul it upstairs for me!

So much nicer.

In my own defense, though,

I honestly thought powdered

soap wouldn't work in

my machine.

WRONG!  

It's all good. 

Another plus?

It will be easier for me to 

send some to my lovely

sister for Christmas!

Enjoy!

Coming soon...

A MUCH easier recipe

for laundry soap!